Healing generational trauma, an urgent hospital visit and the journey between

One Monday's adventures and a special invitation for you

Sometimes when it rains, it pours. This week I have had SO MUCH spirit connection! Wow. Each session has been incredible and I never know what is going to happen.

On Monday I experienced an acutely intense feeling in my stomach a little way into my session with a new client. It turned out it was for her husband. As I intuitively felt into it, I could sense that a lot of emotional energy was stored in his stomach. This thick, sluggish energy was trying to process through his body but was stuck and she confirmed that he was experiencing a lot of physical symptoms. As I felt further in, I sensed a connection with his mother. There was something heavy and intense that came with this feeling and I could sense there was difficulty in the relationship, which she also confirmed. I was then shown that what I was seeing was actually a pattern that belonged to neither of them directly. They were stuck in a dynamic of relating with each other that came from further up the bloodline that was caused by very deep intense trauma. She confirmed this and shared that her husband is of Eastern European Jewish decent and his family had been through very traumatic experiences.

In the beginning of her session, it was very clear to me that she was intuitive and that healing energy needed to move through her body. I could see that if she didn’t engage in some kind of healing intent or act she would feel stagnant, depressed or more easily become ill. She confirmed this to be absolutely true. I could intuitively sense that in particular, she supports people’s healing from a distance as opposed to hand’s on healing. This role is essential and isn’t always as recognized. So when she did just that as we started to help her husband’s bloodline heal, it was lovely. To me it was clear that this process was part of her learning as a healer and her spiritual development as well.

I engaged her help as the energy work started to move though and into him and his bloodline. It was potent and intense. I could feel her husband’s ancestors begin to gather, reaching out to support and facilitate this healing for their family. It was powerful to witness and participate in.

“The Ancestors” by Chele Jinn

Immediately after this session, I raced home to quickly eat dinner, connect with my family and reset my energy. Later that evening I had an urgent in-person session at a hospital for a group of nine people who were gathered to help their dear lifelong friend who was on the edge of life.

Early Saturday morning I had reached out to my friend and amazing parenting coach, Hannah Olavarria, from Upbringing to see if she and her family were available to spend time with us. I didn’t really think about it at the time, but our schedule was actually pretty full. I was just acting on an impulse to reach out. When she responded saying she wished they could but she’d been in the ICU since Thursday with her friend who’d had a massive aneurism, I knew immediately why I’d been given the nudge to contact her. We spoke briefly on the phone and connected with her unconscious friend at the spirit level. Her friend shared the essence of her beautiful personality among other things and I felt like she was showing an image of a group of people connecting with her spiritually. I said this to Hannah and soon she confirmed that they did indeed want to schedule a session for her close friends as soon as possible. It was set for Monday evening.

It is usually easy to clear my energy after my sessions. But somehow the stomach feeling I’d had with that last session was lingering in my body and I felt shaky and out of sorts. I’d had a super full day with back-to-back meetings followed by an amazing massage by Abby Auch then straight into sessions, managing many details in between.

I ate a meal and asked my husband and eight-year-old son for space while I reset my system. We had changed our schedule so I could respond to this urgent request and they were both gently expressing their disappointment. Normally I would be doing the evening and bedtime routine and Chris would have the night off from parenting. Nico and I had planned to do a baking project and he had been looking forward to that. I shared how grateful I was to them for being flexible and how important it was for me to be able to help these people at this time with their loved one who may or may not stay in her body. To help her communicate with the people who love her was a really important role that I needed to be in. I loved them so much in that moment for shifting their perspective and making the adjustment to support my work.

I climbed in bed for a few minutes to rest and try to reset, but couldn’t. I wasn’t sure what was going on. Was I starting to pick up on the anxiety of those I was about to go see at the hospital? Was it residual energy from the prior client? Was I still vulnerable from being at the end of a long cold and having such a full day? In any case, this experience is unusual for me.

I specifically asked my spirit team to help me not to open to any other energies and to disconnect with those I’d been connected with previously. I was then led to ask for my family’s help. I went into Nico’s bedroom where they were building and organizing LEGO and asked if they could put their hands on me and send me replenishing and clearing energy. I explained how I was feeling, what I had just done and what I was about to do. I talked them through how to receive energy in their bodies and then send it through their hands. They lovingly obliged and then Nico laid his head on my lap and hugged me. It was so sweet. I rarely involve my family in my work, but in that moment, it was essential and so meaningful to ask for help and give them an opportunity to engage and support.

I also reached out to my wonderful assistant Julz, who sat in meditation to send healing and alignment for me to reset and be prepared to show up for my next session. All of it helped so much. I suddenly realized that a quick 10 minute epsom salts bath would be the icing on the cake that locked it all into place. Now I was fully reset and ready to roll. While I was getting ready, I saw Mavis quietly sitting on my dresser. I scooped her up in a hug to ask for her help and felt an amazing feeling of calm wash through me.

Painting by Willem van Aelst

It was a somber and quiet crowd when I entered the conference room after walking through a maze of hallways at St. Vincent’s Hospital. The room was far too well-lit, so we turned our phone flashlights on and switched the overhead lights off. After I explained what to expect and how a session works, we started the recording and began. It was a beautiful session with plenty of loving and relevant evidence unfolding right away. Hannah’s friend had bright floral energy, immediately showing up loud and clear, revealing that she was present and connected to everyone in the room. We received meaningful messages about her current state along with how to understand what she was experiencing. This would help them to accept and lovingly move through whatever outcome is to unfold.

As I was writing this, I felt Hannah’s friend nudge me to reach out to invite Hannah to write too; that this would be healing and helpful for her and for many. Here are Hannah’s beautiful words:

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“I struggle to describe the experience I had with Anna and 8 close friends. It was intense, magical and very reassuring... How to put words to the feelings, sensations and energy that swirled in that room? With the lights low and my eyes closed, I experienced cool, water-like goosebumps up and down my legs the entirety of the session. The bright spirit and loving character of my friend came through so clearly through Anna, as well as the supportive spirits of my friend's beloved dogs. One of the most impactful things that I'll take away from my time with Anna was the support she gave us in envisioning a way to access our friend's radiant energy, feeling her love and finding trust in everything going on... As well as how to reflect that energy and love right back to her. This is a beautiful practice that we can now employ throughout the day as we support our friend and her husband through this uncertain time.”

“Honestly, my anxiousness and sadness about what has happened and what the future holds have transformed into absolute trust in and utter gratitude for my friend's soul-- regardless of whether she decides to stay here or move on. The efforts Anna made to create an opportunity for us to heal and grow will spread beyond that small room to our community, shaping relationships for a lifetime.”

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An opportunity has unfolded through this process for us to explore together. Sometimes when my help is needed for a crisis, a missing person, an accident or other urgent circumstance, additional energy can be helpful. If you feel a strong pull to assist by intentionally sending healing energy during these times, I invite you to do so. Julz and I will create a list of those who respond in the comments on substack or reply if you receive this post in your inbox, and we will reach out when there is a need with information and instructions for how to contribute your healing intention and energy. I love how this can bring our community together in support of each other.

Thank you for your radiance and guidance, Hannah’s friend. I know you are instrumental in supporting those you love and all of us.